By day the Lord directs His love,
at night His song is with me -
a prayer to the God of my life.
I was awakened in the night. It was a little past 3:00AM and I couldn't go back to sleep. There was a lot on my mind, making my head feel heavy on the pillow. Thoughts of my boys, the church, women's ministries, the upcoming conference...and back to my boys; around and around it went until I decided to pray. "What is it Lord, why am I thinking about all these things. Why does my mind and heart feel so heavy with cares?" I attempted to give them to Him, but the weight of them kept falling back on me. "Lord, I am casting my cares on you, for you care for me. That is what Your word says, and I believe it. So why are these cares not going away?"
I got out of bed and walked around a little - into the kitchen, the living room, then sat down in a chair. I know if God is not taking these things from me there must be a reason, so I asked Him. "Lord, what is it, what am I supposed to do? I'm tired and I want to go to bed! I have meetings in the morning and don't want to be a zombie." It doesn't take much to make me a zombie. Then I felt the need to pray. Not pray to go to sleep, not to take away my cares, but pray for my boys and the people on my heart. To also pray for my church and the women who attend Bible study there...the up coming conference, and God's will to be done.
As I prayed the heaviness lifted, and the tears began to flow. I got it! He woke me up. He wanted me to pray. In the quiet of the night, with no one else around, He lit a candle in the darkness with His presence, and I joined Him in the night watch. When I went back to bed, there was a sense of peace; He was in control...I left my cares with Him and He held them safely through the night.